Yia sas

2012-02-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just feel so conflicted inside.

2012-01-25T23:38:00.004+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

it has been a while.

Been busy baking during this period.

Quite satisfied with the response for the goodies.

Still, have to keep fingers crossed.

haha.

I don't believe that what i'm going to say next.

I regret not studying harder.

Seriously, when i look back.. i feel so stupid.

Having to repeat O's did teach me a lesson, but through the hard way.

I wasted a year. I wasted my teachers efforts. I wasted opportunities.

What was i thinking back then?!

but oh well, whats done cannot be undone.

Just have to work harder for the rest of my life :(

Jia you guys!

we will be millionaires one day!LOL

2011-11-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

This sounds really stupid.

But close to a year after graduating, i'm still finding my way around.

Well, at least i made myself useful for the past 6 months.

Doing the things, I've yearned to do.

and yes... realizing that it would not work out.

Passion cannot feed me.

It's time for goodbyes again :(

2011-10-09T01:22:00.003+08:00

It's not very comforting to know how fast time actually goes by.

I've been working hard.. really hard.

at times i do miss poly days, those datelines we had to meet.

It gave me a goal, unlike now.

I felt so shallow speaking to him.

it's like i've been living in my little bubble all my life.

protected, pampered.. alas, selfish.

stupid, even.

it made me think again, what is the paper chase about, what i really want to do, made me realize that i'm not focused, short-sighted.

How and when.

i get no enlightenment.

2011-08-27T12:58:00.002+08:00

Great weather to sleep in.

nice day to slack.

but there's so much things that have to be done!!!

Why cant life move at a slower pace? huh why?

i can't even remember when was the last time i blogged.

and i cant blame it on my memory, cos life is obviously on a highway.

geesh.

The week at work has been crazy.

the worst thing that could happen, happened to me.

no need to guess.

i tell you. a dog that i was walking ran away.

fcuk!!

but fortunately, it stays nearby.. so it ran home.

still.. it ran across a road.. scared the hell out of me.

ok.. i need to get moving.

2011-07-09T18:23:00.004+08:00

I have lots and lots of stuff in the fridge.

and i cant stop buying!!

omg!

Apart from baking stuff, which makes up a big portion of my sprees, i buy meat and fruits too.

Fruits are too cute and attractive to stop myself from picking them at super marts.

Meat on the other hand, tastes great on the pan.

It's all in the mind!

Even the freezer is not spared.

i buy tons of stuff and then fret when their end is approaching.

haiyo.

But its really fun in the kitchen.

Anything can happen.

the reward?

a filled stomach! wads better?:)

2011-07-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

Life is so complicated.

and it is making me so confused.

sucks.

2011-06-20T11:50:00.002+08:00

Was a little insomniac earlier in the week.

Then work during the weekends totally drew me back to deep slumber.

seriously, lol!

every 3 days of works, my body becomes achy and limp.

great work out.

So if anyone is looking for a great workout or hav sleeping woes, this would b a perfect job for you.

$8/hr.

9 hrs of workout.

weekends.

Great fun!

i think they are still employing.

but i have to warn, it is hard work.

no less.

2011-06-14T22:55:00.003+08:00

Today is a happy day!

cos i feel happy!

hahaha.

there's always a sense of accomplishment when my baked goods improve..

and it will always be reflection day when the below expectation goes into the bin.. all the way till bed time.

So today's enchilada went well, so did the souffle.

I cheated my way thru the 'enchilada'.

im embarrassed to even call it one.

cos it was meant to be Mexican, to be spicy, tangy..

But who cares, this is MY version of enchilada(until i can get it right).

just painted some left over pasta sauce onto the tortilla, cut up the bbq chicken which i bought earlier, rolled it, splattered more sauce on the top and simply sprinkled cheese.

It was a simple job.. and a pretty lucky experiment too.

i even slipped a strip of bacon under the tortilla skin cos bacon is so yummy!

froze a couple of them. so when hunger pangs strike, i shall not fear.

i would den knock on the fridge's door, open it, and command the enchilada into the oven.

and have it served to me! wahha!

wee!

and i got my PDL!

hee. dun know why i felt so accomplished when i received it!

could be because it had my name on it.

just like the grad cert. lol

being stupid here..

Pretty eventful week ahead.

2011-04-28T17:09:00.003+08:00

Little prince wants to eat broccoli, which he made it very obvious ytd.

So have to be quick with this post.

Got myself a part-time job to get a gist of working in a kitchen.

For now, i'm employed. I'm not sure for how long will this status remain.

Cause as of first official day of work, i screwed up the cashiering machine =x not a good sign.

Accounts, a close friend of maths, have something in similar.. they are all out to get me!

The pay is reasonable, and i only work 4 days a week!

One thing a love about this job is that time flies! i can do anything, just don't make me sit on an office chair all day.

I reckon that this kitchen is already the most merciful one ard, and aft just one day, i am shutting out of this industry.

Baking can just be a hobby, and it should just stay that way.

I still do not know what i want to do.

f***!

my mum wants me to study.. and study smth that will lead me to work with animals in the future.

She says working with humans is very troublesome, which is true!

but.. i'm undecided.

I don't know what people think of me.

But my relatives think of me as an animal person??

maybe my actions have misled them, having smuggled animals home from a very young age.

I'm not very sure if i am ready for another hobby of mine to get marked off the list too.

Gonna give this job 2 mths.. before saying bye bye.

Then going to try out the zoo. and then a childcare.. for children are the most innocent form of humans!

University can wait.. am i right?? ha.

2011-03-24T00:34:00.004+08:00

Back from Taiwan.

it feels surreal to go on a grad trip.

3 years of hard work rewarded with a trip with buddies that made it through the grueling sch terms.

Total expenses: $1223.00

My $ : $558.00

Mum's $ : $665.00

Aren't i such a sweet daughter? didnt make mum pay everything even though she offered to. =)

but i didnt realise that i paid almost 50% out of my own pocket. *ouch!

my bank acct is really feeling the emptiness right now. and i refuse to check its financial state it is in now.

THE BIGGEST NEWS..

I passed my FYP!

A! surprise, surprise!

GPA ended well.. managed to hit 3!

the feeling? damn shiok for 1 hour.. den i went back to sleep.

my future's uncertain, but i'm feeling excited.

bec there are boundless risks and experiences with youthfulness that God has blessed me with!

still, i'm afraid of failing.

and ... when i'm really free, i shall dedicate a post for Tiger Airways.

2011-03-06T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hello bloggy, it has been a while since i last spoke to you.

Not that you would miss my ramblings.. but i miss you.

BYE A, BYE B, HELLO C, D, E and F

Guess wad.

I didnt expect to regret anything frm my FYP.

and i did it again.

totally screwed up.

now that i think back.. even the poster is badly done.

and my report could have been too brief too.

i also fainted when i found out that the poster itself has the same percentage as student attitude.

like what's the logic?

but i guess that's me.

i hate words.

i cant go about talking about the same topic for 10 mins.. unless it is abt dogs!=)

maybe i shd work for muji.

Their stuff are always so blank yet attractive.

Hey, there really is beauty in simplicity.

Look at Mac..

HERE'S my TO-DO LIST

1. hahaha. no lar. not going to announce my boring schedule.

100. find a job.

Will be going to Taiwan with a very noisy bunch of gals and den prolly to Japan with family.

not very excited when i think of the flight. eeww

whoever invented planes, could have done a better job. =x

MISS ME MUCH!

and Pray For Ray!

and Eat Right, Stay Fit, Sleep Well.

2011-02-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

I'm 21... er shi yi!

hahhaa. but i feel 17!

Thank you folks for coming down to amk on a sunday.

2011-02-09T21:22:00.002+08:00

really feeling a bit siao as attachment is coming to an end soon.

i mean.. the anticipation has been building up for dun noe how long already!

wee!!!

act not really expecting any grades for this attachment

just want to do my best ba.. last module alr. Why not?

A or B wouldnt matter as long as ive tried my best.

It's weird..

thinking about work in the coming months.

my ambition was always to retire.

but if i hav no choice but to work, i know that i want to find a job that i like. (it seems to be this generation's goal too)

pick up some hobbies before reality really hits.

because when you think you know everything,

you will learn that you don't.

i'm so stupid.

2011-01-22T21:54:00.003+08:00

A little fed up with life.. just a little.

Absolutely feeling very tired.

With work that never seem to let me rest, and reports not any where near done.

i honestly feel tired, mentally esp.

and if the presentation date is pushed back! i'd be so fed up!!!

I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO END ASAP!!

life w/o $$$ would suck.

now, i understand.

it's time to push myself a little harder.

96.7% exhausted liao..

2 more days to article dateline

19 more days to report/aes/ poster dateline

5 more weeks of work

25 more working days.

The only comfort? maybe..11 days to CNY

2011-01-16T15:29:00.003+08:00

There are lots of things that needs to be done.

time's ticking away.. i haven got anything done!

CNY's coming sooon!

.. which means attachment would be soon done with.

And it's making me nervous.

fyp is just a report.. but what to do later on?

i'm clueless.

i want to be a dog.

2011-01-02T02:38:00.002+08:00

Happy 2011!

it's a new year, new start!!

my sis and i were just lamenting that it doesnt feel so, cos we have too many over due works!

btw, 2010 was a horrible year!

4 days off.

kinda sucks.. couldn't even produce anything.

not even 1 article finished.

Yet, there's so much to do. hai-yer!

but within this short period, night has become day and day become night!

nvm. last min work sometimes give the most satisfaction.

Had Ocean fish head curry@tpy.

Not bad. Worth the money.

most importantly, it was the company.

Kopitiam setting, but with the laughter, it's enjoyable.

Actl, ever since Ray came, i've been spending less on myself.

His expenses, medical bills, grooming, outings, training..

add up to a pretty hefty sum.

but no regrets having him, it makes me realise that it's possible to live a simple life.

Friends @ poly say that i'm skinny till 'kong bu'?

aha. not true lar.

asked my mum.. she say NO. skinner better!

maybe she's secretly anorexic! hahaha.

but i eat!

I shd put in some pictures to fill up this boring space!

When i end my attachment.

omg.. my longest 2 months wait ever!!

kuai ma jia bian!

2010-12-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

WOah! It has been a month!

Nnice to be back:)

Hope u guys have been fine.. not that we dont talk on msn.

EEks. dont know where to start. hmm...

Let me tell you what i have been up to or rather, what has been keeping me busy.

----WORK!!!---

I still dont understand why i have to work.. maybe it has something to do with it being desk bound. it's my second desk bound job.. and still not liking it.

Ray has been fine.

Undergoing training by Alfred. n he is only scared of Alfred when he is in the house. The moment he leaves, Ray's tail goes right up again.

He's still not a people's dog, very unfriendly towards unwanted touches and attention.

He really hates it when people touches him when he is off guard.

But the only reasonable exception he makes is towards little children.. still our hearts skip a beat each time they slap their hands onto his face.

I guess that's the way he is, if i were to think really hard then, i'd have recalled that he hated people to touch him ever since young. But we thought he was being shy.

Ah Hua Jie Jie got married over the weekends.

sO HAPPY for her. =)

And it's again tuesday tmr.

9 more weeks!

wishing all a merrily merry christmas!

2010-11-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

If you could change something of yourself, what would it be?

If i were to think back, this 10 weeks would be the definition of fast.

I've never held a job longer than 3months before.

But to describe my present feelings, i would say that work has been more than work.

I met people who are nice, who are flexible, who do care.. about holidays and life.

And of course there are days where it is just less beautiful, esp when you are an intern.

Like what my editor says, the lowest rank.

I still have 2 more articles to write, which i totally loathe, but still have to do.

Yar, got homework one, okay?

Having Kylie at work perks me up.

She's so cute!!

I just want to cuddle her each time i see her!

Ray's training started today.

I think Alfred is good, although his muscles are intimidating. haha

I just want the best for Ray.

It's kind of strange when i think back sometimes..

He doesn't buy me anything, console or give me advice, remember my birthday, neither does he go an extra mile to make me happy.

How did i ever fall in love with him so deeply?

Whatever the future unfolds, i will just hold my breath and go.

2010-11-15T01:18:00.002+08:00

It's week 10!

I've lost count the week for those in sch!

10-?=?

hahaha.

And Cy is going to have her presentation soon?

Woah!!

So excited for her, can't wait for mine!

I had wanted to type something, but forgot.

Ok. goodbye!

2010-10-31T22:42:00.002+08:00

I've just bought a photo album for Ray.

You may think it is not practical, given the technology of today and future years.

But such simple memories, i want them concrete. to hold tightly.

He has become a structure in my life.

A friend so close, that i am afraid to lose.

His smell keeps me going through hard days, because i know i have to earn money to support him.

I love him so, to me he is so perfect.

Playing ignorant of his scent marking around the house, his occasional tantrums and even biting fits.

I know he doesnt do it on purpose, he never will.

hate mondays.

2010-10-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

I never knew that i had an allergy to nuts.

Not every type of nut.

Just happened to be Grams, or maybe even others that i have yet to discover.

The itch is unbearable, the tingling feeling never seem to go away for long.

eeks.

Work has been work.

10-6pm, Monday to Friday

Does this bore you?

It does to me. i cant stay working in the office.

i knew it all along, but office job is always considered as easy money.

í feel like chopping off the hands of those super free people who keep sending in their contest slips.

If they are retirees, i feel for them. But for those working class, i would love to send the slips over to their respective HRs, i think they need to have their workload increased.

Aunties and uncles who send in their slips, send them for every contest, every promotion.

Singaporeans ar.. tsk.

i dun know if i can graduate.

but graduation seems nearer than ever.

yet i'm still unsure of what i want to do.

i seriously cant imagine working for 40 odd years

the thought is just disturbing to the mind and soul.

haiz.. zhe mo ban??

2010-10-04T00:09:00.004+08:00

Hello friends,

it has been long, hasn't it?

Hope you guys enjoy ur last 2 wks of holidays. whahah.

i seriously do miss having a long holiday lar.. so u lucky peeps dun jing zai fu zong bu zhi fu k?!

I am pretty unsure if it is my english or chinese that may ultimately improve in the end.

That's because my colleagues speak mainly chinese.

But one thing is for sure, my typing speed has improved tremendously.. it has to, the work and all has given me the much needed exposure and practice. and if i want to complete anything by the end of the day, i have to be fast.

just completed a 800 words, and am hoping another one would NOT come anytime soon.

it squeezes my brain dry, worst than a dried up starfish.

ok. the week is about to start again.

where me and my closest colleague would would scream ''mondays blue!'' tmr, dread tues on tues, ask why is it only wed on wed, and hope for fridays on thursdays. while demanding that time moves faster on fridays. and hope time stops on the weekends!

2010-09-15T00:37:00.003+08:00

It's past bedtime, but my mind is running on the energy fuelled by coke.

Ms brain is being stubborn, honestly, i am bothered by the fact that i have to write an article.

or rather, attempt to

it has been years since i've written anything, other than a blog post lah.

i know my style of writing, short and to the point. no way am i to go on and on about nothing, not even 1 word more.

So this certainly has pressed me a little bit.

However, work seems smoother. people seem nicer and more normal.

they talk abt life, they joke, they think abt the coming hols, yet still do their work.

i definitely feel safer there. =)

Still, i'm trying to adapt. Trying.

6mths is too long lar. results next wk!

as usual, there's nth for me to lose. cos i've always wanted 3mths.

As i got older, i stopped trying.

i realised my limits and wrapped myself around them.

i am constantly reminded of my abilities, or lackof.

it never occurred to me as to why i stopped, i just gave up somewhere, and it became part of me, eventually.

thinking back today, i think i see a dim light at the far end of the tunnel.

it will take a while, a lifetime, when will i get there?

why are dogs always enthusiastic to go out, even when they go to the same place everyday?

that's why Ray is always happier than i am.

there's so much to learn frm dogs!

adopt one today! hahahaha

2010-09-12T15:57:00.002+08:00

Having jitters now.

it's all happening a little too fast. mentally unprepared even thou i have been telling myself about this 24weeks attachment for the past few days.

inside, there's always this thought that i may fail a paper and be recalled.

either that or i have to convince myself that 6mths will be over in a flash.

i still have no idea on how to go there,

cabbing is the only way for now!

i hope everything will go alright.

but the cookies i baked just hours ago, was unsuccessful.

is this a bad omen?

hahhaa.

last few days have been wonderful.

never felt so fulfilled and busy during a holiday.

happy birthday Bei Si

wish me luck!

2010-09-09T22:51:00.003+08:00

Tired to the max!!!

i bet that u will feel exhausted for me too.

hahaa.

after dinner with nyp girls, which was awesome btw!

Wed

knocked out for 12 hours. slept frm 1am-1pm!

do hsework part 1

feed the kittens

prep pizza crust

Thurs
go orchard buy things for ppl and myself!

go get pay frm xxx

go ntuc

feed kittens

went back to Nus. damn troublsome to get in. so decided to take taxi in. but told the uncle wrongly. shd be old NUH.. i said NUH. so went 1 big round. the admin stuff change alr. nice lady thou! this $$ came just in time, recently spendings have been going upsss.

ok.. guess housework part 11 is coming up.

sometimes i wish.. my sis would help out when she is having her hols.

but dun expect anything, it will only lead to disappointments.

2010-09-04T02:25:00.003+08:00

just finish chatting online.
a bit excited to see them on tues.

hopefully, everybody turns up!

on msn

Sometimes as friends, we have nothing to say to each other.

a casual hi and how are u? and the conversation falls silent.

but knowing that your friends are there seem to be enough for that day.

There are days where u will want more attention from your friends.

you irritate and bug them with your nonsense, sending nudges and silly emocon till we get tired and fall asleep. happy just knowing that they still care.

There are days where we have so much to tell each other, that we wish that the other party would just shut up and also not walk away from the computer leaving us talking to ourselves.

we smile and giggle ourselves silly in front of our computers, oblivious to the stares of our environment.

sometimes we talk till we forget about everything else including the time. like now, i have yet to start revising! but this is the time i treasure the most.

dont u think so too? =)

2010-09-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

2 more papers to go!

damn excited.

dun think i will do well for the Ebm paper, but shd be can pass.

got stuck at the accounting qn for the longest time until i couldnt take it but ask the teacher for help.

me: "how to calculate the salary? if you tell me how, den i can calculate the rest"

teacher (stares at me, den at the paper): umm. use the figures below"

me: huh.. i tried le.. but weird weird one"

teacher: i will come back to you later"

teacher: use the current ratio. 3.5''

me: ratio? what is that? is it 3:5?"

teacher: no. (stares at me again)(turns away from me)

me:?????

i think she must be thinking i must be retarded or something.

hahaa.

At my forth attempt in trying to solve the qn, i caught Mr Alvin sniggering at me!

Frankly, i was quite frustrated as it was all numbers and so i couldnt understand why cant i solve it! so i was fidgeting around a lot! talked to myself and all.

But in the last 5 mins.. i did it!!!

woohoo!

suddenly, my brain switched to numbers mode!

didnt do well for the DD paper, but SFG was okay.

still left with proteomics and mbid!

hopefully the papers will be easy dey.

ohh. the new lawyer show is awesome!

much better than the police one

no rui en thou.

ahh. want to go back to sch and see her

havent seen her for the longest time!

2010-08-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

this week was supposed to be a studying week,

but it ended up as a studying day.

which i booked it-saturday. no outings, nothing.

BUT i have this headache since like 1 plus and i woke up at near 11am?

oh.. how wonderful.

i can feel my stomach flipping as i type this.

and shit popping out from my anus soon.

i think there is something going on in my head.

and now my stomach too =(

toilet!

2010-08-27T01:16:00.002+08:00

=(UPSET)

wanted 3mths attachment so badly.

but haiz.. still never get.

my language sucks for gawd sake.

just have to stay positive and complete it.

like eeew.

2010-08-26T10:34:00.001+08:00

wow.

it is alr thursday!

For those on attachment, i guess they really cant wait for this week to end!

congrats to ni men!

which also means that we are all 6mths older already!

Time passes very fast, but not during attachment.

must pray for me. to either get good company or fail one paper!

been rather busy this week.

painting and reading up on recipes.

hahha. my mind just keeps floating away from school work!

painted my sis's room, the bathroom's pipe and the balcony grills.

hahaha. started at noon and ended at night!

so by the end of it, i was too tired to even watch my tv shows.

baked pizza for the 3rd time!

hahaha.

1st was wholemeal, 2nd and 3rd was original.

for the 3rd crust, i actl prep it on sat, and when we ate it on wed, it was still ok!

hhaha. easy and fun meals.

next, i''m going to try to bake some bread!

ohh. and YOG is coming to an end alr.

surprising, i found myself watching quite a number of matches!

esp badminton.

awesomeness!!!

ok. bye. going to get ready to go sch.

i actl thot it was on the friday.

thank goodness have my auntie siting to tell me.

omg! hahaha

zai jian jian

2010-08-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

woosh!

just baked biscuits for Ray.

The whole process was messy, and i had to substitute almost every ingredient as i didnt know what most are.

the dough was sticky, damn sticky till i bobian but to add some olive oil.

hmm. it looks okay. not something you and i will eat thou.

Ray accepts it, but we will see if any side effects can be seen tmr.

will take a picture when i'm less lazy.

there's still a sinkful of things to wash, u know?

2010-08-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

was feeling super bored in the afternoon.

but found a food blog!

and now, i'm so excited to start cooking or baking something.

http://happyhomebaking.blogspot.com.

what i like best are the simple recipes. simple is good.!

hahhaa. shall try to find sometime this week to cook something new.

also, hopefully, i will be able to bake some biscuits for Ray after my paper tmr!

ohh. the products i redeemed frm the points are here.

quite ok.

plus above 800 get free delivery.

and yes, i'm supposed to be busy studying.

but see the abnormally regular updates?

hahhaa. studies can wait.

anyway, i prefer last min work, the more adrenaline rush the better.

btw, PCT IS BORING TO THE MAX.

wish me luck and pray that i dun fall aslp while doing the paper.

bye!

2010-08-16T16:26:00.002+08:00

another cute and handsome peekture of Ray!

hhaa.

damn bored.

didnt go zoo today cos i wanted to stay home and study.

i think i did ard 3 hours of flipping.

but it really stretched me.

so now waiting for all the tv programmes to start!!

tmr i shall try agn!

actl i watch AI(in chinese), a very stupid taiwanese show.

but since my mum watches it, i caught on.

now, i'm addicted and cant wait for 7pm to come.

ok. rubbishy

bye!

2010-08-14T20:36:00.001+08:00

omg.. i need to start studying!!!

but shd i go to the zoo on mon?! =x

2010-08-12T22:46:00.003+08:00

Went to HortPark again today!

we tried out the trekking route, but returned to land after a distance.

more fun, but we are not very insect friendly ppl =p

ray loves trekking! he chose the rocky path instead of stairs.

walked so long... all the way to vivocity.

wanted to pack him off to grooming. but bec we alr have a package with XXX@serangoon, AND they have some stupid condition, that we only can use it at the serangoon, so we couldn't get him groomed.

Seriously, i've decided to switch loyalties. Having bought Ray from them, purchased close to $1000 worth of products over the last 3 years, they just have so many RIDICULOUS terms and conditions. and have u tried converting those pts u earned for products? hahhaa. something worth maybe $1 plus, is worth 50 pts. Meaning every $50 u spend, they thank u by giving u back something worth $1++. worse still, it is their own product. so their cost price could possibly is just 40 cents. so yar, am i satisfied? NO.

hhahaa. and a pkt of fish4dogs dog food? 800pts! for a product worth $25. $800=$25

but still, i will hold on to their membership, as they are the big boys. convenience and the new pet friendly mall coming up in serangoon. why not?! hahaha

ok, back to today.

hmm. reached vivo at ard 12.30. within mins we looked out of the mall, it was raining heavily!

thank God.

brought him to safari.. where he made more enemies.

and we bought some mini pies for him at their bakery.

hmm. another gimmick. $4.45 for 5 small pieces.

i wouldnt buy that for myself, and they know that too.

anyway, the SA was so nice by letting ray try a piece.

and poor him, he was so confused. 1 part of him wants the pie, the other part of him wants to bite the approaching hand. well, he obviously snarled and threaten to rip off her fingers.

but when my sister offered him, he stuffed the whole pie into his mouth.

yup, so bec of the SA, we were convinced to buy.

next, we had to feed ourselves.

CARLS JR.!

but with ray....

so we sat discreetly at the table behind.

unfortunately, there was a door beside it.

all went well for 20 mins, until an indian man walked by suspiciously.

and ray just have got to do his job and let everyone know that he thinks that this indian man is suspicious.

left the place.. not chased out lar.

walked ard vivo abit.

den took cab to james tan for his vacc.

Dr sim was there, so we requested for her. =)

she asked abt robin too and she said ray is very handsome!!! and repeated that twice!

and yar.. did body checkup, took weight, check teeth plus vac.. total bill was only $37.50.

she also gave me a free dental treat(sample)! dun know if it is bec i look cheapskate. =(

but still freebies!

Ray was shaking badly, and his whole body stiffened. so quick quick brought him home!

the worst thing was the total cab bill came close to $35.

sia suay!

ok.

bye.!

2010-08-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

hello world,

aren't you beautiful and scary?

2010-07-31T22:01:00.002+08:00

Ray bit me on the middle finger on thurs.

really hard till it bled.

i didnt hit him at all, just wanted to clean 'his' chair. guess he was being territorial.

i was angry with him.. but really cant bear to be.

he hid under the sofa for the longest time in his life and avoided me throughout the day.

my mum said that it's bec he's feeling guilty.. funny. but may be true leh.. cos even when i scolded him on normal occasions, he would pretend everything is alright in an hour.

i suggested bring him to Patrick Wong for training.

but after the 56th,57th and 58th thought, i decided to give us another chance.

if he ever attempts to bite again, off he will go.

I so badly want to go learn from the man himself, but i dun think i can commit the time now.

The dog run @Bishan Park is still open, we just found out today!

and we brought him there!

so many CHHs!

and yes, we will be going there frequently as long as it doesnt rain!

so if you, you and you, wants to go.. meet okay?!

still, he cannot stand bigger dogs! the pug incident scarred him badly; the worst thing was the owner's attitude. she allowed her ugly dog to chase ray into a mud puddle.

RAY HATES GETTING DIRTY!

HEE. did my first ordering with KOHE pets.

Items are so much cheaper than the usual shop i frequent!

the goods have yet to be delivered.. so shall wait and see.

anyway! Bought some 3 in 1 markers from ARTFRIEND.

there were on offer. u.p$5.90! now only $1!!

0.0

haha. frm England somemore so quite worth it!

cheapskate..

ok.. have to start doing report alr!

no time no time!

Boring post ahead

2010-07-22T14:40:00.002+08:00

Boring post below..

When things are starting to look bright,

suddenly a dark cloud appears.

SERIOUSLY 2010 isnt a good year.

i think i screwed up a lot of projs this sem.

suddenly, there would just be a mental blockage when i'm about to speak.

i would lose my thoughts for a long moment, before gaining it back.

is it due to old age, or is it because i get so overwhelmed that i cannot focus.

never really had this problem before, so this kinda sucks.

i dreamt that i failed my exam too.

and had to retake a module..

it ended with me pleading with ms tai "dun want lar, i want to graduate"

hahaa. not very funny.

i feel my confidence dropping with each setback.

a little by little.. with the biggest decrease when i was in.. ahem*

but thru it all, i realise that i have got lots to learn from chi ying.

she's damn good at PR. hahha.

i've got so much more to learn, and i'm not grumbling about it!

it's these things in life that makes life more lively.

right now, i feel like taking a leap.

but it's only small baby steps for now.

i need to grow up fast.

"if you want something, grab it"

and i want to go back to church asap. cos it's impossible to live w/o You.

It's too late to give up! =D

2010-07-17T18:20:00.003+08:00

hello bloggie..

u've been missed.

so many times, i wanted to update you.. but i just dun noe where to start.

napfa wasnt a killer, even thou it's my first time failing it!

quite funny actl.

it is the aftermath that kills, sibeh pain siah!

TIRED seh.

yr 3 is no joke!

saw my CT results like late last night. nearly vomited.

but i must say that thank God i passed 5/6?

the paper that upset me the most was proteomics..

But before i remembered that the results was out..

actl heard saddening news of robin.

sometimes i really wish i can dun care anymore.

but each time something happens, i spend the whole night thinking and worrying about him.

i even screwed up my CT for him.. so he cannot die! no..no.

but i think it's time for me to let go of this matter, bec it's silly to put 100% when i know there's only so little i can do.

visited him for the last time at the hospital today, he shd be alright.

with this, good luck robin!

Also, the other 3 dogs.

the owner only wants to give to ppl he knows.

so yar, no point looking out for him anymore.

He put it very gently to me that shd there be no one taking them, he would rather put them to slp.

Harsh? not really. he explained that he was afraid that they would fall into wrong hands. which would have been worse, a slow death or a redundant but instant one?

cos if i rehomed them, who is going to be responsible for their well being? what if they were ill treated?

i would have to be responsible for another 7 years of my life??

initially i begged my mum for the 10 yr old silky.. but she was quite reluctant.

i know that if i pushed harder, i would be able to get my way.

but after thinking through, i decided not.

bec she said "why bother yourself with other ppl's problems?"

it reminded me of Jack Neo's movie "i'm not stupid".

where Selena Tan kept telling her plump son to mind his own business.

You may watch the show and think that that is so selfish and cowardly,

but i finally understand that there's some truth to it.

when it is other ppl's problem, the only person that can solve it best is they themselves.

if they create it, they solve it.

for e.g. my mum doesnt mind Robin. but i was quite reluctant, cos she wanted to house him outside the house first and we will probably have problems with HDB.

what is the best solution? for robin to be back with his owner; Robin would be the happiest dog alive.

with that, i actl helped to reunite a lost dog with it's owner ytd!

and it marks the end of this doggie business! well, at least until i am able to commit again! :)

so, right now..

notes+effort+concentration = results!~

2010-06-27T21:12:00.002+08:00

Really did the minimum for this common test.

the least i studied so far.

dun know if can consider it as studying even.

hahaha

die then die.

dun care anymore.

ohh. i realise that sch sucks. if there's no such thing as sch..

n i hope i can work with dogs.

cant stop thinking of robin.

but right now, there's no way that i can keep him.

okay bye!

2010-06-04T22:38:00.002+08:00

To fellow suay peeps!

this recent spate of unfortunate events have shaken us,

upside down inside out.

many times we do not understand why were we the 'chosen' ones.

the days seem so unbearable. it seems that time has stopped at this moment for us to embrace every single horrible event.

even if we were to throw our tantrums and scream out our woes.

few will listen, and even fewer will understand.

BUT remember that we have each other.

we can always compare who is suay-er and pity each othe.

and at the end of year 3.. i will give this person a treat to sweeten the bitterness.

for all u know, i might be treating myself. hahha

dear jac.

i dun know if i shd include you in my suay list.

but if u want to be included, do let me know before the year ends.

bec we have to accumulate pts to see who will claim the title.

so far, i'm leading. ahah.

cheer up okay!

U CAN EAT HAINANESE CHICKEN RICE~

ok.

3 things on my WISHLIST

1.for all projs to end asap! esp marketing track proj. pttf.

2. for my year ahead to be like sg's roads. not bumpy!

3.adopt another doggy soon!

i'm back.

2010-06-01T22:40:00.002+08:00

ADVICE:

Whenever you see more than one post a week.

dun expect the 2nd post onwards to be a smiley one.

hahaha.

silly me.

to think that they will be able to protect and be empathetic..

In sec school, i had some really good teachers; thus my misplaced trust in such authorities.

disappointed? they are with me.. and i am, with myself.

first, it was ms protein, she was all sarca about it.

then when we went to meet ms coordinator today, well, it just like waxing.

you never know who you are up against.

thanks for doing your job so well.

if you think that i'm being such a loser, maybe you can do a better job than me. i will really admire you.

you can say that i'm being judgmental.

but as a student i've my rights too.

2010-05-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Back again!

almost a week since the last update.

time really flies in school.

2 tests this week were over even before u can even take a breath.

quite easy.

but still have 2 presentations next week plus 1 more test. omt!

hahaa.

time is much more bearable in school than in that lab. :)

caught up with fiona, jac and sam today.

hahaa. just seeing them ard sch can be quite spirit lifting.

but they are going to leave soon =(

BUT.. i really treasure CY more these days.

there was a period of time, where our friendship came to a standstill.

however, through this difficult period, i believe we are closer now.

thank you.

dont expect someone to understand you if you do not say what is in your mind..

having said that.. i'll try to be more outspoken. :)

i think by the end of this sch episode,

i would be able to die in peace.

2010-05-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

went to sch to study with CY today!

tests and projs coming up.

cant study at home cos every bit of the mounting stress disappears at home..

it's easy. just stare blankly the your computer's screen or simply just sleep your time away.

when the clock hand finally reaches 5.30, turn on the TV!

and it's alr going to be FRIDAY!

i dun want to say it..

but F***, why does this week have to pass by so fast?

i did work hard for my grades for the past 2 years.

not your average standard of hardworking, but hello? i did put in effort.

and wtf?

how come things will turn out this way?

i seriously dun understand.

each year, i would admire those people in their graduation robes..

but things are not going smoothly for me.

trust me, i want to be positive about it too.

i feel tired. i am tired.

okays.. everybody out there jia you.

just keep going! :)

2010-05-11T21:48:00.002+08:00

baked banana muffins for the 2nd time!

the first time wasnt that nice..

this time round, it tastes more like banana cake!

gonna bring one for CY to try tmr.. wahahha.

Baking makes me happy.

actl i knew it some time back alr! hhaaa.

just that i didnt like doing it often bec it's very troublesome.

and who likes trouble?:)

life... has to go on..

truth is that going on to year 3 w/o a break can be quite torturous.

what more being in a new class.

alrite.. eat and be healthy!

drink lots of H2O!

2010-05-05T20:44:00.002+08:00

Make a Difference.

that used to be my sec school motto, not sure if it is still is.

it doesn't make much sense rite?

mere existence is a pain, why even bother?

ironically, whether you are aware of it or not, we do make differences;

that is regardless of it being positive or negative.

sec sch is stupid, education is stupid.

thankful, very thankful that cy is with me.

but a part of me just want to finish this and get the hell out of there.

let me show you how stupid i am.

bought sport shoes!

gonna exercise a little more than the usual.

for now..

world peace.

2010-05-01T15:00:00.002+08:00

sam gave me a very late birthday present ytd.

a badminton racket, and they came along with shuttle cocks!

hahaa. what obvious hint for me to exercise away my fats!

thanks ah!

sch's getting heavier.

the workload is more, in terms of proj.

but the coolest thing is that we are actually doing proj during curriculum time!

eys. lots of journal papers to read.

oke. bye!

2010-04-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

Today was finally my last day there.

no need to see those flies, or enter the smelly room.

bei si told me smth her friend said which really helped me feel better.

she said "whatever must go wrong, will go wrong"

still, i didnt handle it well enough.

hmm. how do i survive the term w/o sam?

a bit worried.. just a little.

hahaa.

ohh.

smth absurd happened last sat.

i was at novena.. to buy donuts!

so was holding on to a 10 dollar note.. den this old lady selling tissues approached me.

-those that usually go for 3 for 1 dollar.

so i passed her the money on my hand.

den she started giving me stacks of tissues.

i quickly refused and told her that i'm getting a dollar worth only.

then guess what she mumbled...

"SO NIAO"

wah piang eh!!!

so i insisted on my change.. she gave me 8 dollars and decided that i shd just give her an extra dollar for her lunch.

she den started digging for another 3 packs of tissues..

horrible rite!!

den today..

i saw her again!

jk!

now what?

2010-04-19T23:45:00.004+08:00

i'll miss my friends that i made during my short time there.

esp mj!

how we complained so much during lunch time till we sat there in resignation,

how we wished so hard that we could disappear after lunch,

and how our eyes would meet each other when smth happened.

right now, i feel like a loser.

but i just have to convince myself that i have made the right choice.

next time, i will try to be stronger.

2010-04-17T16:15:00.002+08:00

sometimes when u keep looking around,

you lose focus of the front.

that's when you will crash.

And I've.

what shd i do now?

2010-04-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

ok. i wave the white flag.

will be fighting my case on mon.

pray for me.:)

2010-04-12T19:58:00.001+08:00

to treasure every moment.

to keep trying and never give up.

still a long way to go.

2010-03-27T21:51:00.001+08:00

Flying to China on Monday.

2010-03-20T15:15:00.002+08:00

Feel like painting my room purple!

but but but.. no time!

and also no mood!

hmmm. but i think the color would be quite irritating after a while.

planning what i need to buy for the trip to China!

it's just a week away! hahaha.

and also thinking if i shd fill up my log book.

maybe/hopefully on tuesday, i would be happy.

i know i shdnt be hopping to fail, but i really dun enjoy what i am doing.

furthermore, attachment is just a phase we have to to go through so as to graduate, why have it difficult.

i'd rather have it easy and boring!

ok!

look up RAY's photos on FB. :)

2010-03-19T20:55:00.002+08:00

SORRY FOR BEING AWOL!

it has been a tough week.

attachment just started, and well, certain things cant be discussed here.

waking up at 6AM every day is inhumane!

the environment was a huge change which up till now i'm still trying to adapt.

hopefully, by tuesday, things will change!

i will not resign to fate until tuesday.!

working with drosophilas has been a little interesting.

at the same time, images of them float to my mind each time i shut my eyes for the day.

human beings are selfish, but that's how our medicines come about. =(

the only awesome thing in the world of drosophilas, is that females are considered more valuable than males!

today has been awesome!

got off work as early as 1pm to go to school!

met up with THEM!

missed them so much!!

and jac really felt warm when i hugged her, it's not just the warm feeling in the heart!

wished that time would just stop there.

( as in the met up with THEM, not hugging jac!)

hahaha.

lets not think abt monday!

2010-03-09T19:08:00.002+08:00

Sunday.

woke up at 10 plus am.

smsed jacinta and si ting to ask abt the plans for today.

jac replied!

si ting didnt.. as usual. ahha

decided on the event at Fort Canning Park.

siting and me cabbed down together, met jac there.

the doggies met and greeted each other too!

the weather was so hot. so very hot.

quickly took shelter at the booths.

looked ard.. spent $$$.

sat ard with drinks at a cooling spot.

Ray kept harassing Aiai... cookie was in her own world.

dog watched the time away.

it was fun.. in a strange way.

ohh! and jac gave me Endearmints!

those mint sweets frm Fish & co.

wish i hadnt have to share with si ting!

hahaa.

Monday.

c.y gave me a photo frame with a photo of us in it!

it looks awesome!

Si ting gave me a grey Tweety tee with the price tag still on it!

hahaa. at least she still wu sim.. rmb i like tweety! jk.

ohhohh. and sharon and bei gave me pressie earlier earlier.

a green slogan tee and 2 facial mask.

i wonder what are they hinting to me by giving facial mask..

but no.. sharon started reassuring me with her dao li, and even promoted it's benefits..AGN!

love the tee-shirt too! bei stated that it's a color that i dun have.

hahaha.

thank you girls!

aft briefing.. went to find Dr cherine tan.

bei was doing her 'AVATAR' repeatedly..

ahhahaa.

and we went to find someone.. but she was rushing off to somewhere =(

china trip would be coming up soon, somehow, it feels more real now.

a bit excited alr.:)

Tuesday

Woke up to the opening of the door.

it was alr 1 plus.. so couldnt be my sis..

guess who?

MOTHER!

her sudden and unannounced return gave me a shock.

still, we beat her to it, by giving her a bigger shock.

with the state that the hse was in.. she ended up using the whole afternoon to clean the whole place.

hahhaa

2010-03-08T19:32:00.001+08:00

http://www.despair.com/

Went for lab briefing today.

having mixed-feelings, seriously.

for every 10% i'm excited, i'm 40% scared.

which sums up to 20% excited, 80% scared lar.

The weirdest thing is that i dun even know if i have passed my exams, and it sounds really horrible to be re-called back.

2 papers that has been making me worried and will continue until 23/03/1o, are mol gen and immuno.

totally dun know how to do them. But other than worrying, what else can i do?

i really dun dare to think far, not even to the attachment point, which is the coming week.

haiyo.

so cruel.

ok. updating 'normal' things soon.

2010-02-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

i'm very scared that i would fail my papers.

at the same time, i feel unmotivated.

esp immuno.. for now.

4 more papers.

so manY!!!

wanted to post some pic of ray,

but somehow my phone couldnt get connected to the com.

ok.. need to pass BPT.

NEED.

30 MINS MORE OF STUDYING

2010-02-22T22:47:00.003+08:00

The start of tmr will be the end of me.

starting to worry now.

this exam just feels so different.

no hard mugging, to pulling of hair, fewer than few hand written notes...

maybe i've gotten numb to examinations.

that's the problem with getting used to things, you become complacent.

tmr would be my wake-up call..

the time when i dun know how to do my paper, that's when i will start jumping on my chair.

too late, too bad.

ohoh!

my unruly dog!

today he totally embarrassed himself, but i dun think that he knows that.

gsst~

and he made me crawl under the sofa to attempt get him out.

what worked was actually a white milk biscuit.

not my sincerity.

2010-02-22T00:55:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY, 21-02-09

(i know it's alr monday!)

all i want to say is alamak.

really dun have the mood to study, tried so many times le,

keep ending up on the bed,

also dun know how i managed that!

ok, the truth is that i read my notes on the bed,

hahaha. zi zao.

why would i do that?

cos the notes are so boring that i can even fall aslp on the chair,

so might as well slp on the bed rite?

Ray would be taking out his stitches later in the day!

whee-pee!

so happy for him!

hahaha.

just some blabberings.

why are u reading this?

study lurh!

jia you!

2010-02-17T17:40:00.002+08:00

Couldnt go sharon's hse today.

wasnt feeling well.

much better alr, thou i'm still popping ice cubes into my cup by scoops.

so addicted to it =(

didnt touch my books at all during the CNY period.

damn disappointed with myself.

started today, but no momentum.

and it is alr 5.42pm.

alamak!

anyway, i recalled something.

someone taught me this years back.

A prayer..

dear God,

please bless me with a clear mind,

help me to concentrate as i study, to retain and understand what i am learning.

teach me to apply it too and keep my body healthy during this period.

thank you, lord.

in Jesus name, amen.

i'm sure God will help anyone who ask of him.

hope that this will help you guys too! =)

jia you! jia pui you!

2010-02-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

This is for eileen.

really very sorry for not replying to ur smses.

though you never say that you are angry with me,

but i know you would be.

promise you that i will do so next time, ok?

hmm. tired.

goodnite!

2010-02-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

'Fatty' is now at a temple.

hope he is doing okay there.

my uncle and auntie spend most of their day there,

and the temple is open everyday, so i suppose he will not feel lonely.

still the best thing that can happen to him is for him to find his owner, to have his own home and sleep in his own bed again.

but! he finally barked and ate today! (from what i heard)

he eats chicken.

i was just joking that he was a buddhist ytd, as he didnt eat the beef pieces i offered, and today he's staying over at temple. hahaa.

hmm.. didn't expect to have feelings for him this fast, could be that quiet nature of his that is so attractive.

wish to visit him soon!

On a happy note, my uncle is willing to help the dog solve his incontinence problem, if possible.

hmm.. ray is recovering.

have to pray hard that his stitches dun come apart.

bec the vet said that there is a high possibility.

so everyone pray for ray ok?

2010-02-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

Argh!

Ray is making me worried.

first was his leg, den fever, now he has some sort of infection at his butt.

pengs.!

every time i lock him up, smth like this happens.

but surprisingly, he hasnt scent marked since.

he has been very moody, snapping at us every now and then.

tried to book appointment for him alr, but the Dr is very popular, have to walk in.

hai yeer.

ok. bye

2010-02-05T22:19:00.003+08:00

Had my best nap ever!

ultimate seh!

reached home, drank a bit of soup.

SLEEP!

until 4 o'clock!

this week was uh-oh.

cant really remember the details.

but it was fast, crazy, sucky...

tiring sums it up.

have to go CNY shopping soon!

yayy!

so damn excited!

AND!

Survivor starts on the coming FRIDAY!

ok. last lap!

2 WKS OF PREP + 1.2 WK OF BATTLE

MAKE IT WORK! -Tim Gunn

the weekend

2010-01-31T15:09:00.003+08:00

Went to cut hair yesterday.

was very crowded, so the stylist told us to come back again at a later time.

waited until 3, den go down again.

my hair very jialat, even the stylist said so.

so i told him that it is my father's fault.

but come to think of it, my mother's side- almost all my cousins have unruly hair.

so both got wrong lar. hahaa.

he asked me rebond agn, so am considering again.

friday.

went novena to buy printing paper.

on the mrt, a weird old lady put her weight on me while she was walking to the exit.

i look like a support meh? never even say thank you.

aunties and ah mahs always bully people, they think they old den we dun dare say anything.

cut our queues, step on our feets, push us, etc.

hopped over to united square,

had u.d.d.e.r.s ice-cream!

just as we started eating, this fat oily looking bum threw a slip of paper on our table.

on it was 4 digit numbers.

he started making a weird noise, something like pretending to cry.

with the eye rubbing action and all; in between, he gestured that he is hungry by spooning himself and rubbing his bloated tummy.

i managed to catch a few words in between his 'sobs'- he wanted money.

my sis, being very kind-hearted, wanted to give him.

den she was asking me what to do, den

he went on his knees when he saw that my sis was giving in.

so i said no.

he stayed there for a while, while we ignored him.

finally he went away, to the other table.

he is able-bodied, for him to go on his knees,

i dun think that it is funny.

he's timing was perfect, so he is mentally sound.

am i being mean?

dun think so ba.

shall give ray a good diet before he goes for his surgery,

i have yet to call the clinic thou.

but i want him to be in his best form,

also, i realise that i cannot delay it that long,

as he is currently w/o exercise, so not very healthy.

but for now, save money first!

didnt do any work this weekend.

stocking up on sleep!

but mentally preparing myself to work harder alr.

BUT mum will be coming back on thurs, den will be busy busy liaos.

cos with her ard, have a lot of things to do. cfm chop chop.

i want to invite my friends over for cny,

but hor, my hse very boring lar, only got bed..

ok. my primary school good friend added me on FB!

HAPPY!

2010-01-29T23:03:00.003+08:00

Today during break time, we talked about the supernatural.

was a little scared to be honest, haha.

esp when they had so many stories/experiences to share.

got to know so many rules from our dearest 'auntie'.

my parents would be horrified if they see me throwing their shoes apart in the hotel room,

and i still believe that a prayer would keep me safe lar.

well.. got to know how tan tse soo is like.

thinking of him just makes me want to laugh.

ray's putting his weight on my neck as i type,

so shant say much except that,

its friday! hooray!

u know, when people make u angry,

be happy!

2010-01-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

bad news.

Ray's patella is out of place.

the vet suggested operation, so i guess he will have to undergo one.

but only aft CNY.. and aft my exams?

she quoted ard $800, but i think it will be more as it is mt pleasant.

anyway, we went to james tan clinic today.

but didnt see james tan.

instead, we had this cute female doctor, who was very nice to Ray.

she explained to us, and yar..

i think it is only logical for us to help relief his pain.

anyway, the fees were reasonable.

just $37+?

but cab fares... haiz

hmm.

i actually feel relieved.

ok. bye.

2010-01-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

This weekend went by lazily,

despite having one of the heaviest workload.

have yet to start on my bpt quiz revision, still considering if shd study for it..

will have tmr morning to pia, and it is 6% only rite?

hmmm.

New Year goodies displayed at shops along the streets are making me excited!

and yiyi would be coming over during that period!

den visitations= ang pows!

rich liao, rich liao

Nth much happened today.

just that i insisted on eating carrot cake from chomp chomp,

so my sis made us take cab there and back.

super waste of money lar.

and yar, 50% of the time, i meet weird cabbies.

freaky can.

ok here comes week 15!

push on!

peng you men, jia you!

really hope to clear this sem.

really hope sia.

2010-01-21T21:04:00.002+08:00

Today was pretty sucky.

woke up slightly past 9, and lesson started at 9.

not a good thing.

hmm.

was doing bioinfo assignment during class cos i thot today was the dateline,

but NO, it is not due till tmr.

silly, damn stupid.

dont like bpt tuts days.

not that i dun like ms ang.

but the timing keeps changing until i feel pai seh to call her.

so today i tried my best not to,

still i screwed it up.

don't understand, not understanding.

den the craziest teacher acted up again.

no comments.

but just feel like puking.

lots of things happening,

nothing is moving thou!

somehow, i feel tired just thinking about it.

alamak!

i love my friends.

Dun make enemies, you silly peacock.

after all, you are in poly, u need friends.

why bother to do a one man show?

2010-01-19T22:49:00.003+08:00

BECAUSE WE HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD!

jia you!!

thinking of getting Ray a CNY costume..

shd i??

2010-01-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

Today!

just have to blog about today!!

as usual, it was the dreaded monday agn...

lesson was as per norm, didn't or rather couldn't pay attention.

cant absorb bpt on a regular day.. need some stress factor.

den it was laughter all the way till 1pm.

hmm.. protein tech prac sucked as usual.

cant see, cant taste, cant sense.. followed blindly all the way.

this report sure mati liaos.

lets not mention mol gen.. hush!

After that, headed to kenny's house for proj.!

wind at his area is so so so strong.

blew me away!

did some proj work, took some pictures!

Bounced to amk hub and bishan to scoop toys with si ting and sam.

At amk, met this pro uncle, which made my day!

srsly! to know the tactics.. eye opener sia!

He was simply awesome!

den trained to bishan's to scoop the cute toys i wanted!

happy happy!

alright!

lots of things to do.

but for now.. goodnite!

hopefully when i wake up tomorrow, all assignments would have been completed!

(*winks at fairy godmother)

nite nite!

2010-01-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Jacinta.

this post is an hour late!

but i know that u will still appreciate my thought! :)

caught the piglet!

i need to draw the line clearly.

cos obviously i have not been handling this well.

so much that, you seem to have that persevering false hope.

i think i know what you would tell me,

that i have gotten it all wrong, rite?

well then, friends we will be. (period)

i treasure my privacy a lot.

even my parents often do not know where i am, what i did.

it's not because my parents are seldom home,

but it's something i dun feel obliged to tell anyone.

in my opinion, there's no need for me to give anyone any answers/replies, etc.

selfish?

yes, i am.

i'm not being rude, i'm being selfish.

cos when i refuse to reply, i'm thinking about my own interest.

i think i've made it clear.

i need my space. :)

today, i learnt about something.

it blew my mind away.

individuals.

i say humans should live individually.

sometimes, it's so much wiser to be quiet.

i kind of missed those days.

it was much more peaceful.

much.

ct results will be out later in the day.

got myself a pail and a bar of chocolate on standby.

to puke or to seek comfort?

hmmm..

2010-01-09T20:58:00.003+08:00

Without my friends and teachers,

i wouldn't make it to where i am today.

very grateful to all of yous!

thank you all very very much.

Finally, the OH closed it's doors.

practically dragged myself out of the door today.

it's a Saturday neh.

thank goodness for the company of little jacinta.

we talked for hours, about anything and everything.

hahaha.

collected a lot of freebies too!

ohh. went the Sun with Moon on thurs.

they are having promotions on their sushi. =)

after that, walked ard then decided to go for the body show.

$21. it was quite okay ba.. fascinating.

finally found my favorite tune on youtube!

it's kiss the rain by Yiruma.

go listen.. very nice de!=)

ok. (drum roll)

ms leong ai lin added us as friend on FB!

all thanks to Bei si!

2010-01-06T18:54:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.

tmr, the day after and the day after the day after will be NYP's open house.

i think its going to be a bit fun, a bit boring. haha.

The coming week would be the release of O lvl results le!

then there are many projects that have yet to be completed.

sure busy over the next few weeks.

CNY. $$$ =)

then mug exams again.

then take exams.

den over le.

but hor, got feeling will fail a couple of modules this common test.

my strategy of staying up late the day before the paper to study didnt work.

staying up even later than ever!

so haiz.. take it as a lesson lor.

what to do!!

Instead i realised that having not enough sleep caused me to blabber nonsense and make many careless mistakes.

ok. shall not mourn anymore.

jia you to everyone.

2010-01-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

The battle of the beetle, 2 humans and a dog.

i was ironing my clothes at quarter past ten.

with the tv on at the background..

to break the eerie silence and to brush up my chinese language.

soom*

something small flew in from the balcony.

[silent scream]

tries to ignore and continues to iron.

thic*

beetle!

ok. offs tv*

[sis comes out of room]

hahahhaa.

[insect starts flying]

****screams****

so we spent around half an hour trying to capture it.

with many failed attempts to command ray to save us.

he was soon hiding under the chair lar.

while inching forward to capture it with a plastic bag, vic remembers smth..

SHIELDOX!!

..........beetle lost!..........

R.I.P

2010-01-03T14:45:00.002+08:00

Went to the dog run yesterday.

after an unforeseen hiatus.

the weather looked threatening, but i prayed.

thank God, it didnt rain, just cloudy.

Ray likes going there, he gets very engross with the scents.

sniffing the grass a lot, not so much of other dogs butt now.

but think he got a bit embarrassed yesterday..

he toppled when he got involved in some chasing, and couldnt get up.

hahaha.

anyway, his scent marking at home is so out of control that my mum is offering me $100 to end this behavior.

not an easy case, but will put in more effort since there's some incentives. haha.

ohh. holidays are boring without homework.

so, i'm so glad for them, it keeps me pre-occupied.

pukes*

ok. my butt is aching.

got to pace around.

bye

2010-01-02T00:12:00.004+08:00

Have been waiting for this day to update this blog.

happy NEW YEAR to all people out there!

2010 sounds a little close to 2012..

not that i care, the movie is so hyped up btw.

watched movies, many movies this short break.

2012, new moon, avatar, sisters keeper and An education.

only the last 3 are worth the time. as in they are really awesome.

i think avatar was the best or maybe its a draw with An education.

2012 made me drowsy, and new moon left me speechless.

New year resolutions are a waste of time to me.

i dun stick to them, and i wonder how many people really do.

if i were to write, i will write stuff that i would definitely get it done within the year.

so at the end of 2010, i would feel good about myself.

haha.

and i know that i'm very shallow.

but i found someone more shallow than me.

should i say hallelujah?

i think i know what i want, and what i don't already.

it's about being firm, lar.

2009-12-26T13:50:00.004+08:00

It's raining heavily now.

so much water being thrown down from the sky..

if only it was snow.

Christmas has been really really great!

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday were spent at Orchard.

Shopping there is so shiok.

spent a lot of $ but nothing for myself.

Thursday.

Met up with eileen and becca in the afternoon.

went to this Indonesian Restaurant to eat..

The moment we sat down, they kept advertising their calamasi drink.

thought i was in a kopitiam, only there will they keep pushing you to get a drink, and only there will it be acceptable.

well, their calamasi drink despite how heavenly they made it sound, was just lime juice. [period]

Then came the food, was reasonably tasty, however, it had striking resemblance to satay and siao ji.

and there was this waitress whose body language was especially offensive.

she speaks to you in a 'you better!' tone. pttf.

needs more training, more training!

we are not your friends hor, we are your ka-ching, ka-ching!

Shopped around for a while, took photos with christmas tree instead of toilet mirrors for a change.

didn't manage to meet christine thou.

went to sharon's house after that!

hahaha.

love her sister, she has got a very attractive aura.

or maybe it's just me, i love quiet people lar.

food was delicious.

hehee. here comes the segment which i love the most!

- wo cai, wo cai, wo cai cai cai!

had to guess what was being fed to us.

really gross all thanks to evil sharon.

ahhaha. and then played wii for the first time in my life.

ended the day watching some totoro's relative show.

thank you sharon for the Christmas party!

Friday.

woke up at noon.

prepared dinner with and for cousins!

it was fun, having so many hands in the kitchen.

prepare, prepare, prepare.

and we played lots of games!

mind games, the worse thing is that i was surrounded by really smart people.

and when it comes to directions, i'm a goner.

but was really fun!

the night ended late..

happy boxing day, everyone!

End of CHRISTMAS.

shall go post Christmas shopping tmr!

2009-12-21T17:28:00.003+08:00

Can you hear?

you don't have to be in orchard to hear the Christmas bells jingling.

it's ringing in my head!. ohh so excited!!!

Have to go Christmas shopping for presents for the next 2 days.

1 day is not enough, and every girl knows it.

Today went to school in the morning for the OH training.

was still having fever yesterday.

was a little entertaining bah.

wonders how is jac doing. hmm.

she's very bad. Say i wun miss her.

maybe lo, but hor, she take my thumb drive never return me den go India..

so whenever i look for my thumb drive, i have no choice but to think about her.

received her Christmas card yesterday?

love it!

thank you!

cant wait to meet up with the girls, and hopefully can catch christine too.

it will also be eileen's birthday! i never forget lor!

also, a christmas party at a BIG BIG BIG house. hahaha. must buy BIG BIG BIG present also?

and cousin's stay over during Christmas!!

i miss eating steamed fish..

all i want for christmas is...

a steamed fish.

2009-12-18T12:13:00.001+08:00

so damn pissed with myself.

anyway last paper today!

to jac..

take care

take care.

goodnite world

2009-12-11T18:05:00.004+08:00

I'm not the one rebelling.

my tummy is.

It has been feeling upset for a week, on and off of course.

Even had runs in school =(

is cold water bad for the tummy?

water w/o ice is not tasty.

the motivation to drink water is ice itself.

and i chew up to 15 cubes of ice a day!!

it's really addictive!

supposed to not blog.

budden just feel like talking to myself.

hahhaa.

Today.

Me, being a good girl as usual, stayed back for prac.

ehs. afraid that my attendance would give me ma fans again lars.

the desmond, i think, was quite funny.

and of cos that's just the nice side of him.

never was this excited about Christmas.

all thanks to the common test, i now appreciate the drawing of the day more.

i cant wait to go orchard road and soak up the festive spirit, hum along to the Christmas carols at shopping malls, walking past Christmas trees after Christmas trees.

and maybe try to pull a santa's beard!

ohh~!

was in LA or vegas last christmas, (cant remember)

and guess who we saw on the bus!!

SANTA! his beard looks real. so does his shape..

where is his reindeer?!

CANT EVEN READ FINISH MY NOTES!!!

ending off with a sad note.

this sem is so much harder.

not positive about it at all. =(

wish me lucks + pump me oil + God bless me =CAN PASS?

2009-12-06T18:00:00.002+08:00

i wonder if many of us are feeling this now.

i'm...

so screwed.

after charting out what i have not done vs what i have done..

the ratio is daunting.

i'm just trying to flip my notes quickly to grasp what is going on.

but time is not by my side,

i will not even have time to understand what have been taught lar!!!

i guess that i would have to sacrifice a few modules..

ok.. Ray doesn't like Pugs.

he prolly thinks that they are ugly.

must give special mention to the weather today!

AWESOME

but it caused me to keep dozing off.

will not be blogging much in the coming week.

have to try to save myself alr!

bye and take care for now. :)

2009-12-03T20:48:00.004+08:00

Had dinner at Astons.

bleh.. the kopitiam is so dirty lar.

There were tin cans on the tables, and not knowing that was the 'ashtray', i sat at the smoking area.

seriously.

was irked by someone today.

please lo.

I copy, i fail. my business.

that's the way i have done things,

and i LOVE copying.

ctrl-c!

Pimples.

they are out to ridicule me.

not because of stress.

but because of my diet and that thing.

sian.

shall turn despise into motivation!

at least 4 passes?

hmm

2009-12-01T22:41:00.004+08:00

Had a WTF day.

went to sch..and late la..

so, the wtf thing was that i was marked absent for 4 hours!

4 hours.. is a lot!

nvm! ...as if!

i would have walked out of the classroom that very moment i knew, but now more obedient le..

and i'm starting to hate myself for being so.

den proj presentation tmr..

and this evening, my period decided to come!

ok.. i was expecting it.

but tmr will be 1st/2nd day, pain still must present!

wtf right?

Conked out the moment i reached home..

was unconscious for 3 hours.

haiz..

The only fun thing that ST and i did was to run out of lecture hall.

the thrill as well as memories came back. =(

ohh! decided to cheer myself up with the chupa chup that jac gave me :)

THANKS YOU MAD JAC!

opened and took photos of the process!

and i got a toy caterpillar! hee!

will post them when i have the time

really..

you shouldn't try.

my life is 'good' as it is.

shall turn in early tonight, and forget that today even went by.

nites.

2009-11-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

What schools do not teach you?

to be happy

to make money...

what is the third thing?

hmm.

again i ask, what am i doing in school?

that was the question i asked myself when i was 15.

and everything went hazy after that.

went to Manhattan Fish Market yesterday.

to the central outlet, with the 1-for-1 coupon in hand!

hahahaa. aunty hor.

but save $ can. (u.p $19.90 each.)

it was my first time dining there as a customer.

the place looks the same, but unfamiliar faces greeted me.

i remember those days, the crazy hours.

Had flaming platter instead of the usual fish and chips!

wun mind having that again.

The taste of the prawns lingered in my mouth for a long time.

what pushes you forward?

if you are lazy, it's a pity. i guess?

2009-11-23T16:17:00.002+08:00

Just got back from school.

today neh, we were surprised by someone's action, which made us laughed.

i felt like rolling on the floor!

p tech prac damn confusing sia. hmm.

dun know if i shd go out later.

all the sneezing has made me really tired and lethargic.

and it's her suggestion again.

thou i must admit that i want to go ion to buy Royce chocolate,

i shall oppose her, and not go!

hmm..

sony ericsson's texting is quite slow eh

compared to nokia's.

waste my time, test my patience.

ohh!

and i got another surprise when i came home.

i couldnt find Ray.

got a bit worried.

and i panic very easily..

was afraid that i locked him out of the house when i went to sch.

i called for him, but no response.

went to his bed..

EMPTY!

den on my way to check the toilet, i found him stretching himself on my mum's bed!!!

so atas lah!

now that i'm home, he's sleeping on his own bed.

such an actor eh?

should i work? i'm getting so lazy.

i have forgotten the days where i envied those who were studying.

but hor, the more homework i do, the more homework i must do.

must rebel!!

hmm. shd i save money and go arcade or go buffet?

and my piggy which i saved since 2007 finally reached 100 dollars!!!

i took such a long time that those coins lost its shine!

ate koka's maggie noodles yesterday.

nice leh. hahaha

okay! nap time!!

2009-11-22T17:52:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Sharon!

2009-11-20T05:33:00.002+08:00

it's only 5.30am, and i'm awake, feeling fresher than ever!!

my nap was supposed to end at 8pm.. but hahaha. only woke up minutes ago.

very hungry right now :(

It's friday!

and this week has really gone by fast, i mean very fast.

so happy!

fridays are always better than Mondays.

aiyo..

i really dun know what am i doing.

despite knowing that i dont want to go into science track, i'm halfway there.

i dun feel happy.

now that we have to choose the tracks, it hit me even harder.

oh well, just have to hang in there?

mistakes are costly. =(

2009-11-16T22:37:00.001+08:00

i wish life would be less complicated.
it's too suffocating at home.
give me a break please.

2009-11-15T15:09:00.004+08:00

Hello everybody!

the weather is getting cooling isn't it?

today neh..

went to cut hair.

At our door was this really huge moth, about the size of my fist.

had to navigate slowly and quietly, but it flew towards my sister.

and she screamed really loud.

my heroic neighbors(yes, the ones who killed the cockroach) once again came to our rescue!

reached, but too early, the stylist havent come.

so went market to eat first.

porridge. so sick of Macdonald's already.

den went back to cut.

pretty alr! LOL.

{update on ray}

brought ray for his walk this morning as usual.

and he preyed on a bird!

ytd, at the dog run he was chased by a pug.

scared the hell out of him! haha

but recently, no one's at home most of the time, he must be feeling very lonely seh.

read the papers today!

so excited!

serangoon garden area would be a wonderful food heaven soon.

we would be spoil lerhs.

Finally watched ponyo yesterday.

bei bei insisted mah.

NICE.

den hor, got some ppl hor say i not suitable for this course.

thou i also think so, i cannot agree with them.

cos their reason so lame can.

they say i dun have the studying face??!

hahhaa.

but hor, srly lar, the sch hours so long..

damn sian of sch le.

maybe...aiyo.

Have to start doing reports le.

so many due this week.

sian.

1 day 1!

getting stress-er! haha

of cos i do wish that they could be here.. now that i'm less rebellious. hmm

baiz!

2009-11-12T20:34:00.003+08:00

still figuring out how to do bpt!!

after 30 mins...

i can feel my pores enlarging.

wtf!!

ok! stay calm.

stay calm!!!

*screams

2009-11-11T23:14:00.001+08:00

O Be Careful, Little Eyes
O be careful little eyes what you see
O be careful little eyes what you see
There's a Father up above
And He's looking down in love
So, be careful little eyes what you see

O be careful little ears what you hear
O be careful little ears what you hear
There's a Father up above
And He's looking down in love
So, be careful little ears what you hear

O be careful little hands what you do
O be careful little hands what you do
There's a Father up above
And He's looking down in love
So, be careful little hands what you do

O be careful little feet where you go
O be careful little feet where you go
There's a Father up above
And He's looking down in love
So, be careful little feet where you go

O be careful little mouth what you say
O be careful little mouth what you say
There's a Father up above
And He's looking down in love
So, be careful little mouth what you say

2009-11-10T19:08:00.003+08:00

Today is another happy day in skool.

packed with laughter, it takes my mind off a lot of things.

really really appreciate them.

recently, i've been very absent minded.

and people who play with me get hurt.

why hur?

you always make my day!

and will always hold a special place in my heart!!

money can't make up for it.

but you just got to force yourself to believe, that you are truly happy with material blessings.

it feels like a dry well.

dark, deep and hollow.

narrowed perspective? maybe.

okok! smile~

the only way out is -up!

2009-11-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

The only constant is change.

things will never be the same.

Is it my fault?

2009-11-06T20:56:00.003+08:00

4 minutes to update!

before the 9 pm show starts!

hmm. school today was zzzz...

it's now the end of week 3, and everything is swirling.

it's making me giddy and all i need/want/demand is a bed.

Didnt want to go for marketing today.

but i finally did drag myself out for the attendance.

slugged in.

the teacher thought i was sick because i looked like i was.

so i played along with her.

hahaha! was marked late instead of absent. :)

caught Blue Mansion.

it was quite an okay film; not bad for a local.

but because i wasnt in a very good mood...

ok. bye

2009-11-04T17:49:00.004+08:00

Recently, i find myself admiring people who are honest a lot more.

It takes a lot of courage to tell others how you feel about them, and of course, confidence too.

Do they regret telling you the blatant truth to your face?

maybe it's because i have no guts, but also because i think about the other party's feelings; which may or may not be beneficial to both sides either.

i would have all the pent up frustration while the other person has no clue as to what is wrong.

then here i am cursing away, blaming the person while it is actually partially my fault.

there should be a balance somewhere.. but where?

"YOU ARE A CRAZY, SOCIALLY INAPT CAVE WOMAN WHO OBVIOUSLY LIVES UNDER A TINY ASS ROCK."

this is how my sister truly feels about me.

what made me publicize this here?

i don't know either.

It is not for record purposes, as i can surely without a doubt, remember this for life.

i picked this up not from her private blog/diary, but from msn. she wrote this in anger after we quarreled.

obviously, she doesn't care if i were to see it or not.

Probably she want me to know that too.

she is a carbon copy of my mother.

Their words are like law; they shape, affect and change you,

ringing in your head till the day you drop dead.

if i were to choose between being honest and not hurting other people's feelings,

i will choose the later.

[period]

i refuse to be anything like them.

before you say i have no guts,

maybe you should know where i am coming from.

2009-11-03T17:32:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!

ain't going to blog about the short trip to msia.

Becos we spent more time on the bus than shopping; and frankly speaking msia is like Singapore in the 90s. =x

actl, i have nth to say.

happy birthday sam.. tmr!

havent bought ur present.

be patient hor!

2009-10-31T01:18:00.002+08:00

i'm supposed to be sleeping now,

but my mind just wouldn't switch off, so i shall just bore myself with my writing.

Went to Ma Maison today!

but parents were late, so we walked around first.

had yami's winter melon yogurt again! i love it so much!

actl, i like any thing that is winter melon flavored, but am not really into eating the fruit itself.

anyway, we went to book place.

they still have not arrived..

so i told the waitress that we were waiting for my 'late' parents!

damn stupid right! i think my low-usage brain is wasting away really fast.

hmm...the coming week of school sounds really hectic.

need to start engine liao.

ok, that was random. haha.

i better drag myself to bed now,

or else i will be really grouchy tmr..

and my tiny eyes would reject my contacts too.

goodnites!